Haiz..I know what is holding me back.
Him n his enlistment date.

As much as I wanna find some temp job right now,I couldnt bear to let time be the opportunity cost.
Just barely 2 weeks after his bday,he will never be as free again.

If you ask me,I feel like craps!

Sometimes...On a slight selfish note,single is quite good.
At least..life is really abt me,myself n I.
(Good..I see her point now.)

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Yet I just cant stand myself sitting back n laze at home,a total good for nothing,waiting for the sky to drop me money person!
See my point.

I feel so contradicted and feel so 'ARGH~~~' right now!

I mean...there SHLD be something more that I can do other than this.Yet I dun wanna get started coz there are things that seem more impt,and that I know I would regret if I have chose to do it my way!


Wanna tear myself in two.If I can just have a lil bit of extraordinary powers,I would be like someone like...erm..what's the blue thing in X-men2?The one that can change into anyone's image?

Yea,crazy as it may be,but sometimes..I just wanna be anyone else but myself for a lil while.

Sigh!!!

Nothing is good these days.At least that is this chaos running inside me now!

Wtf!